The beginning of this week started with a need for faith. I know that God has ultimate control but His timing never ceases to amaze me. It all started on Monday. Steve and I decided to participate in our church’s 3 day fast (Monday – Wednesday). Since being pregnant makes fasting food pretty impossible I fasted TV instead. I know for most people this wouldn’t be a challenge but for me….well let’s just say I have a love/hate relationship with TV. In some ways it fills the silence and keeps me company and in other ways I can waste countless hours watching complete garbage. I was honestly frustrated at how hard this was for me. Steve will tell you by Monday night I was already complaining about my boredom and asked him what I should do. I was literally lost, the idea of reading a book seriously never came to me in that moment. Needless to say he had to get me out of the house and we went to Barnes and Noble. I found a book about how to be creative and depending on how good it is I may post about it later. Tuesday was a much easier day because I worked most of the day. Steve was at work and although the silence was nice it also made me realize even more that I was alone. Wednesday was about the same as Tuesday. It didn’t really get easier, but kind of. All in all I am proud to say that I made it.
What did I learn? You’ve probably already guessed it but here it is, the TV needs to be off more often and I need to become more self-reliant on entertainment. In those 3 days, I found myself reading, praying and journaling and it felt rewarding and made me happy. I know that for most people this is all common sense but let’s be honest; most of us are guilty of having something in our life that takes our focus and keeps us from doing what we really want.